ceremony 12-25-11
Today, I opened the tipi flap to my soul.
for me, it was about rebuilding Cantewasake -(can-te-wah-sha-keh) - fortitude, strength of heart and mind.
Originally, I was not supposed to be alone on this day...
but 1 week ago, I felt the wisdom of the elders, the intuition and insight was clear...
and I knew that I would be left alone...again...
the anticipation of the blow, somehow this time, made the sting duller than usual...
but it stung nonetheless.
Instead of letting the disregard and rejection consume me...I turned inward...
knowing that the pain of giving too much, to too many, over the past several weeks has caught up with me once again...
and left me completely alone.
Instead of condemning myself for caring too much...for giving too much, today, I honored myself...
I slept late, I loved myself, I lounged, I read, I cooked, I painted, I enjoyed the quiet, I had ceremony, I drummed, I centered and I did not speak one word aloud...
a day that I was trepidacious about just a few days ago, became a day that I am graciously marinating in...
feeling humble & grateful today...
Honoring the solstice is something lost to most, so today, rather than honoring a holiday that holds nothing for me, it feels deeply meaningful to choose to make a connection to the ancients who speak to me, strengthen me and guide me back to my path when I go astray...
beautiful. i was alone for the morning today.. i was dreading it.. and then.. it turned into a beautiful time. reconnecting and just being in my own skin, and it was comfortable.
YOU have been on my mind girl.. and this post right here is reconfirming that it's time to reconnect. xo
Posted by: Lisa | December 25, 2011 at 09:36 PM