yesterday...
I felt the pull, to get off the highway on the way home...
and travel a different way...
knowing without knowing...
there was a reason...
and as soon as I saw this pow-wow...
I knew why...
I walked around...
humble...
grateful...
the drumming...
the energy...
filled my soul...
I shed a few tears of gratitude...
and was on my way...
beginning stages of painting in progress ~ AM RAVEN ~ 4/11/12
a piece that I started months ago...
and has been on my art table dormant...
but very much alive there...
waiting for me...
whispering sometimes...
inviting me back to the flow...
tonight...
I am organically releasing and exploring this piece that has been on simmer for quite some time...
an inspiration that came to mind last summer...
that has been simmering in my head...
feels good to tenderly release and flow with...
here and now...
no deadlines...
no expection...
just flow...
to be in the presence of the very same willow tree from my Vision...
to touch her with my very own hand....
to stand toe to toe, barefoot on naked earth with the very soul who first appeared in my Vision and then revealed himself to me in my dream...
this is my path...
and I have never felt more at home....
in my whole life...
than I do right now...
thank you Mother Earth for loving and adoring me as you do...
and giving me so much to love in return...
peace, love, respect, gentle...
Zena Moon "Wisdom" & "Air" candles aglow....
tonight....
I was blessed with a phone call from a dear soul....
one of the things we discussed was something we are both working through....
I knew beforehand that this would be one of the topics of discussion...
so before we spoke....
I began MENDING...with intention...my favorite pair of jeans that ripped while I was wearing them about a month ago....
as a symbol...
to honor the healing process of what I knew we would both so openly share...
I will continue this evening to honor us both in our bravery and openness with each other....
and I will continue mending these jeans with intention...
for both of us...
ORANGE...
I quite like it....it warms my heart...it comforts me....
as far as colors go, the only one that can stand a chance against orange for me is purple...
tonight, I did as I do...
looked over the flowers at Trader Joe's...
fell in love with the white Stock and the yellow Ranunculus...each...$5.99/bunch
but as usual, only felt worthy of the $3.99 selections...
so I chose these orange beauties.
still feeling tender and vulnerable tonight....
hoping it's just the pull of the moon and no need for concern....
photo taken while strolling tonight as my duds went round and round at the laundro...
maybe it's the pull of the full moon tonight....
but my heart feels heavy...and has since yesterday....
feeling very tender....pulling in to protect myself.
As I walked to the coffee shop while my clothes were washing, this ensemble in the window of CladIn caught my eye...
I'm not so drawn to the "over" top, but the dress that is peeking out from underneath....I {heart} it so....
I imagine it probably costs in the neighborhood of $845749459459745 dollars in this chic little store....
but even so, I've decided I'm going to go try it on when the store is open.
heck, maybe I'll even muster enough self-worth to actually buy it if it feels as amazing as it looks...
I am fighting these days for my self-worth....knowing that in a few weeks, I'll be able to roam barefoot in a wide open safe space...connecting with earth and water, fire and sky....and another soul who thus far, I've only met in my dreams....
honoring my journey...
last week I witnessed something magical and divine.....
a diner bartop full of older gentlemen....
all light up....in a way that I have never seen any of them light up before...
just over a year ago...I took a job at a little Seaside diner....
I spoke of it here...
not so much for the money, but mostly for moments just like this....
over the past year, I have waited on these men just about each time I've been there, for these men are "regulars"...they come everyday, order the same thing, have the same conversations, with little change to their demeanors...
that was until this magical day.....
when one of them brought in this old scrapbook.....
which ignighted wonderful conversations and lit up the whole room with magic....laughter...joy....
I was honored to be a "fly on the wall" and witness the power of memories....
remembered....
retold...
and relived, but for a few moments....
self-portrait February 9, 2012
...all because of a dream....
she came to me...2/1/12...photo by AM Raven
gently....she came to me...today...good medicine...timely...
"Swan ushers in a time of altered states of awareness and development of your intuitive abilities. Swan people have the ability to… accept the healing and transformation of their lives. Swan gently nudges you to accept your ability to know what lies ahead. If you are resisting your self-transformation, relax; it will be easier if you go with the flow… Pay attention to your hunches and your gut knowledge, and honor your female intuition..."
"similar to the Hans Christian Anderssen story of "The Ugly Duckling", Swan medicine can show you how to see the inner beauty within yourself or in others regardless of outer appearances..."
she spoke...with no sounds...just a knowing...
today...I had a hint of fear...that my past "uglies" would be seen...
and that might take away from the life-changing power of beauty that emerged when I was released free from that past.
our encounter soothed my soul...
shortly after our encounter, I stopped at a favorite local shop...
to purchase a small gift of a favorite scent to send in a package to the very person I was concerned might view my uglies as...
well...
ugly.
As I was paying for the scents...I noticed a stack of thought cards...inviting me to choose one...
I reached into the stack, and blindly chose....
more affirmation regarding...
my Vision...
yes..."cosmic connections" abound...
